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A journey similar to my own, but different at the same time. I have been subscribing to "Parenthood for Me" for a while now and I guess the reason is because the path she walked and the path we are walking are so similar, it is just nice to know that we didn't do this alone...there is someone else out there who really DOES understand what we are going through! So with that, go and check out "My IF Shoes" at Parenthood for Me!
She puts it better than I ever could, although we have not done any surgeries or anything to that extent. My diagnosis of PCOS (and yes it IS a real thing ~ ask me later if you really need to know why I HAVE to point that out!), our miscarriages, my weight issues, my fertility treatments, all the needles, all the pills, all the tears, all the times that we wonder why...well, this lady who is an adoptive mom, really puts what I have felt into words.
Off of her topic ~ slightly ~ I know that I have two wonderful children, and I know that God has blessed us with them...but I also know that the desire to have more is God given as well. And while this recent occurrence in our life is a slight blow to the adoption plan, we still plan on adopting at least one more time. We are praying about a few things right now that might help bring us closer to adoption sooner, but we also do not want to step out of Gods Will for OUR lives. That means that while many people have offered wonderful advise it is us that needs to get on our knees before God and listen for His guidance in OUR lives. I am not going to lie, the month of December stung ALOT and I feel like Christmas was robbed away from us...not only by what happened with the church but also by what went on on Ethan's birthday with certain things being said about me. I am GLAD December is over!!! I look forward to what is in store for 2009 and quite honestly cannot wait for January to be through as well. This may sound like complaining, and to some it may be. But just to see how tired my husband is and how badly our children want to have normal again, and need it, it will be nice to be settled into our new LITTLE house and proceed with life according to what God wants.
Sorry about the wordiness...just needed to share a few things!
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