I have been quiet on the blog lately...partially because I was having trouble wrapping my mind around something....something that I have prayed for but knew it was very UNLIKELY would ever happen. Something I have been nervous how some people might take it, but at the same time didn't care what others thought!
The last week in July I told my husband that if I didn't bleed by Saturday the 31st I was going to buy a pregnancy test. Don't ask me why, just had 'a feeling.' If you remember I worked with a fertility specialist several years ago who was not able to help me ovulate...which led us to believe (and several other doctors) that I wouldn't ovulate again and my PCOS had taken my fertility. After working very hard on a diet I started January 1st that works very well with PCOS patients I was able to loose 48 lbs in 5 1/2 months! What a blessing that was, but it also meant that I was getting my PCOS under control. When I started the diet my lady (who is amazing) told me that we should use 2 forms of birth control because this diet was going to make me extra fertile. My husband and I do not believe in oral contraceptives and we also have always wanted a large family....so while we didn't believe it would happen, we also thought if it does PRAISE THE LORD!
Back to the last week of July, I bought the test on the 31st and took it Sunday morning August 1st (also our Boos' adoption anniversary) and I couldn't believe when the first line showed up and quickly after a faint second line. I was in SHOCK! After church we bought a digital test and it very clearly said PREGNANT! I called the doctor right away the next day because I had no idea how far along I was or what we needed to do to help this baby stay snuggled up inside and not join his/her 4 brothers and sisters in heaven. They 'squeezed' me in with a nurse practitioner and did some bloodwork. But since it was the end of the day I had to wait until the next day to find out the results. They told me the test was infact positive and my hcg number was 12700! They said that was VERY good. They also put me on a supper prenatal vitamin and progesterone...they scheduled an ultrasound for August 12th. One of my wonderful daycare moms was able to come and watch the Pumpkins so Handsome was able to come with me to the appointment. That day we saw a beautiful little peanut shaped Grasshopper on the screen measuring at 6 weeks 2 days with a heartbeat of 128. I was in tears! But with our history of four miscarriages between 6 and 8 1/2 weeks I was nervous. That put me right in that time frame. They scheduled another ultrasound for two weeks...which brings us to today!
I was a nervous wreck yesterday, worried, though I still felt pregnant and hadn't had any recent bleeding...but it was still hard to overcome our past. Handsome came home to watch the Pumpkins and I went alone today. I was hoping for a strong heartbeat and a baby measuring at least 8 weeks 2 days. When the doctor showed me the little one she said Grasshopper was measuring at 8 weeks 5 days! What a blessing...then for the heartbeat....180! At this point Grasshopper seems to be growing as s/he should and strong and healthy! Again, with my history they are doing another ultrasound in two weeks. At that point I should be just shy of 11 weeks and just shy of the beginning of our second trimester.
I know this is Gods timing and Gods hand at work in our lives. I have prayed to grow our family since August 2nd 2008 and you do wonder why now...but I am blessed!
I am also blessed to have a few people around us that understand who we are, what our passion is, and are still helping and supporting us with the adoption route as well! We plan on continueing with our homestudy update and hopefully contracting with our amazing agency by the end of the year. We already have two kiddos three months apart...maybe Grasshopper and our other little miracle will be close in age as well...I have always wanted twins!
Thank you all for your prayers! I cannot say every day is filled with excitedment for this new little one, just because of our past....but I know one thing is for sure we are planning the future with Grasshopper in it! What a blessing!
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