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Sunday~
"How can a young man keep his way pure? By guarding it according to your word. With my whole heart I seek you; let me not wander from you commandments! I have stored up your word in my heart, that I might not sin against you." Psalm 119:9-11

Why do we try to conform God to our will? Live in His word and know true joy.

Monday~
"Make me to know your ways, O LORD, teach me your paths. Lead me in your truth and teach me, for you are the God of my salvation; for you I wait all the day long. Remember your mercy, O LORD, and your steadfast love, for they have been from of old."
Psalm 25:4-6

God reveals the truth of our time and all time to us through Scripture.

Tuesday~
"The law of the LORD is perfect, reviving the soul; the tstimony of the LORD is sure, making wise the simple: the precepts of the LORD are right, rejoicing the heart; the commandment of the LORD is pure, enlightening the eyes; the fear of the LORD is clean, enduring forever; the rules of the LORD are true, and righteous altogether. More to be desired are they than gold, even much fine gold; sweeter also than honey and drippings of the honeycomb."
Psalm 19:7-10

All the laws in all the books in all the libraries of the world are but a footnote to the law of God.

Wednesday~
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways ackowledge him, and he will make straight your paths."
Proverbs 3:5-6

To know and understand God comes not through our intellect, but through the wisdom given to us by the grace of God.

Thursday~
"My son, do not forget my teaching, but let your heart keep my commandments, for length of days and years of life and peace they will add to you. Let not steadfast love and faithfulness forsake you; bind them around your neck; write them on the tablet of your heart."
Proverbs 3:1-3

Don't measure success by society's standards. Use Christ as your measuring stick.

Friday~
"The the LORD answered Job our of the whirlwind and said: 'Where were you when I laid the foundation of the earth? Tell me, if you have understanding, Who determined its measurements - surely you know! Or who stretched the line upon it? Or who laid its cornerstond...?'"
Job 38:1, 4-6

When we measure God by our limited standards, we attempt to measure the elephant by weighing one strand of its hair.

Saturaday~
"Philip said to him, 'Lord, show us the Father, and it is enough for us.' Jesus said to him, 'Have I been with you so lon, and you still do not know me, Philip? Whoever has seen me has seen the Father. How can you say, Show us the Father?'"
John 14:8-9

Christ is God made flesh. If you want to know God, you must draw closer to Jesus.

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Friday, June 18, 2010

My Heart is Broken





♫Don’t know how it is You looked at me
And saw the person that I could be
Awakening my heart
Breaking through the dark
Suddenly Your grace


(Chorus)
Like sunlight burning at midnight
Making my life something so
Beautiful, beautiful
Mercy reaching to save me
All that I need
You are so
Beautiful, beautiful


Now there’s a joy inside I can’t contain
But even perfect days can end in rain
And though it’s pouring down
I see You through the clouds
Shining on my face


(Chorus)


I have come undone
But I have just begun
Changing by Your grace


(Chorus)♫

"Beautiful Beautiful" by Francesca Battistelli



This song has been my favorite since the first time I heard it....and it is true. We have beautiful all around us on a regular basis. The last two and a half months have been something so beautiful, being parents to twins (even if just foster parents) and seeing the big helpers my not-so-baby little ones have become has been amazing. Aspen and Eden (as I will think of them forever) have done an amazing work in our lives and in our hearts. For some reason our desire does not match up with God's will this time...but I trust He knows what He is doing and I need to accept that. But I don't know that I can just move on, in my mind this is harder than a miscarriage. The four miscarriages we have been through were tough, but they were all at around 8 weeks and we didn't know if they were boys or girls. God allowed my body to grow them for 8 short weeks a piece and then He took them home with Him. An easy (for lack of a truly meaningful word ~ but please follow my thought here) transition. I do not have my babies, but they never suffered, never cried, never hurt, they went from the cozy warm safety of my womb to the cozier, safer, warmer, more loving arms of Jesus! That is not the case today, the twins are being uprooted from what they know, love, and count on as safety and security and moved to a foster home that is closer to DSS for their convinience. Maybe it is because they still hold a grudge against us, maybe it is because I fought to have a meeting at a time when my husband could be involved instead of when it was good for them, maybe it is because the foster home they are going to is a way more strong in the faith family and God knows that they are just what the girls need. I don't know what it is....but I do know it hurts.



And in my mind the: "even perfect days can end in rain\and though it's pouring down\I see you through the clouds\shining on my face" and the "I have come undone\but I have just begun\changing by Your Grace" really reaches out to my heart today. I need to be able to see Him through the clouds!



"Like sunlight burning at midnight making my life something so beautiful beautiful mercy reaching to save me all that I need You are so Beautiful"
 
 
 
 

1 comments :

Eve said...

Wow, I'm sorry you miss your two little girls, your are right, it's in God's hands, always has been.

I can not imagine losing 4 babies, I've lost two and it devestated me. I am very sorry. You are right, they are in heaven and I totally understand the way in how you expressed it. We will be with our children again one day.