Amazing

So even though we have had 4 {FOUR} ultrasounds and 4 {FOUR} home pregnancy tests, not to mention other doctors appointments and tests that confirm there indeed is a baby (almost 17 weeks) growing in my belly it has been something hard to wrap my mind around!  After working with fertility doctors and hearing 5 different times "you do not ovulate, you will not conceive again...no more worrying about miscarriages!" it is hard to just trust that this happened "on its own" {really it was all about God} and it is working! 

As many of you know I started the IDP diet on January 1st (not a new years resolution, just the timing of it) and from then to the end of May I lost 50 lbs!  It felt AMAZING, and then in the end of June beginning of July all progress went out the window...some weeks I was seeing a slight increase!  That was getting discouraging, until we found out the reason was Grasshopper. 

Now you can see that for 16 weeks the picture shows me HUGE!  I feel huge, and it was yet another mental struggle to get through for me.  After working my bottom off (literally, so my hubby says) and to just all of a sudden be excited for weight gain, it has been a little difficult...to say the least!  But my amazing Handsome has been such a good supporter, he keeps telling me that we will do whatever we need to allow Grasshopper to go full term and be born a healthy, happy baby.  I plan on nursing, so cannot go back to my diet until after Grasshopper turns one, but will go back!  I still had just under 30 lbs to go from where I was and plan to get there sooner or later.  But I do know that there will be working out and working hard after Grasshopper is born and before I can start back on my diet.

Anyway, all these mental difficulties are starting to get easier to take with each change in the pregnancy.  I obviously look pregnant, and it isn't like my just too big belly...it is harder and more shaped than before.  The ultrasound pictures are fun too...but last Friday night (10.15.10) when Grasshopper gently tapped me from inside for close to a half hour, that is the most real that it has all felt!  He/she did it again on Sunday night while we were at Bible Study.  My husband was teaching the Bible Studay and with my smile on my face he knew what was going on!  Tuesday night we went to bed early and after laying there for a few minutes I got one solid little tap as if to say "hey, this is too early Mama!" 

I look forward to the tapping turning into kicking, to the point that Handsome, Princess, and Boo can feel Grasshopper on the outside...so it can be more real for them! 

There are so many things that this pregnancy has brought to our lives, but thankfulness and excitement are on the top of the list at this time.  We have just over 3 weeks until we are half way and just under 4 weeks until our big ultrasound where {hopefully} we will know if Grasshopper is a boy or girl!  Cannot wait!

Thank you Lord, for the privilage of having this baby grow inside of me and getting to know how 'most' moms become moms.  HOWEVER, we are thankful for our Princess and Boo and looking forward to whom you bring into our family through adoption again...and what that little ones story will be!  We are blessed!