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This little Cupcake has taught me so many things that I didn't know were missing in my life....I am thankful for the beautiful puzzle God has used to put our family together, but tonight I am thankful that He saw fit to bless me with the opportunity to carry a baby to full term and deliver her. To raise a little one that from the very minute I met her could look into her face and KNOW she was mine! It has been a journey, one that is blessed and perfect...one that I believe God gifted me with.
Rather than meeting my baby as a stranger and working from that minute to teach her who I was...she knew. She knew me better than I did, my breath sounds, my heartbeat, my voice....it was calming and soothing to her. She knew me...and I knew her! We were instantly bonded and to this very day this precious girl still needs looks and touches in a different way that any of my heart born children!
That first year went so quickly, her personality started to blossom and the stubborn nature that surely allow her to stick around inside of me became evident! She was just so perfect. I literally wanted to take in every moment of her life.
Those toes, those dimples, those cheeks, her upturned nose, here puffy little grandma arms, her wispy blonde hair, her blue blue eyes...sheer perfection. A true miracle of God! Now I do think this of every child...not just Cupcake...but not every child is of me. Her second year proved again to us just how amazing it was to have a child that was part of us. Her stubbornness continued and we started getting a little bit of attitude. But she also had a very fond spot for her Papa! She loves her Papa and babies and birds and ice cream and touching her Mama! She notices things, she GETS things, as in you can explain simple things to her and rather than having to go about it 100 different ways...she GETS it. It is beautiful.
And now I sit here on the day of her birth, just 3 years later and continue to be in awe of what God does to bring a child into this world. This baby, this Cupcake was just a tiny little speck inside of me that grew and grew and grew until she was out of room and it was time for her to join the world. She captured many from the very beginning and continues to do so.
As I quoted on my FB account last night...my first grade teacher Mrs. Lordan was a huge influence in my life all the way until she passed away after we had Princess & Sunshine had a saying she told me. Apparently it was something she used to tell me when I was in her classroom, I don't remember that, but on my high school graduation she told me that she knew I would do great things because I have always been "small but MIGHTY!" While I can say that Cupcake is one of those great things I now can look at this little person (who still looks A LOT like myself) and see that very thing in her. She is SMALL BUY MIGHTY!
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