Yesterday I listed several different reasons that showed different ways God has been working in our lives....now I must be open and honest with why I felt the *need* to 'be thankful' for so many things. My husband likes to tell me when I am thinking of all of the negative things that is when I need to be the most Thankful and start making lists of those very things.
Unfortunately I didn't have a very thankful heart yesterday. You see back in February, we were contacted by our agency about a baby due this month. Don't criticise me too much, but just being thought of by our wonderful agency gets me excited. Even when I know that we are not contacted with them officially (that takes $$$ up front and while we are working on that...we just need to pray harder!) and the contracted families in their caseload are presented first. Anyway, we knew of one family that was considering this possible placement and that was great...but me being who I am it gets my mind rolling about how it would be so wonderful to have a baby of our own around here again and let me tell you I have been ready since August 2nd of 2008!
We have learned that this baby is not the one God has planned for our family. And that is okay, because we do not want to rush ahead of His plan. I would have tried that before and then may have not had AG or EE...so I am thankful for Gods perfect plan...just a little down in the dumps because it seems that we are so ready to grow our family again.
If anyone has any ideas of how we could do a fundraiser to help with the cost of adoption, please PLEASE let us know! We do still have a pretty good sized loan from AGs adoption and so it would be great to raise enough money so that we don't have to take out another loan...but that would mean around $20,000. SO, if anyone has and ideas or would just simply like to help out please let us know. We only need $9,000 to start the process, then the rest in two different instalments one when we are matched and the second when the baby is born.
So, this was just to let you all know where we are on the family growing front. We would be more than happy to be a family of 5 by Christmas...and I may even be willing to share our anniversary month....we shall see what God has in store!
Desperate
7 years ago
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