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Does anyone remember back one year ago? Can you remember what you were doing? Can you remember what stage in life you were at? We do! It was a very traumatic time in our young lives. We had a 17 month old and a 14 month old, were 31 and 23 and planning our sons funeral! I know, you look at him today and it is very difficult to believe. I remember many of my thoughts, specifically wondering why God would have us go through miscarriages and failed adoptions just to have us bury the son we longed for. I wondered how my daughter would do when her brother was no longer with us. I thought about what we wanted incorporated into his service and what we wanted people to most remember about him. I worried that because we hadn't been able to finalize his adoption yet if the state would let us have his funeral. Jason and I talked about who we would have do the service. Jason was my pastor at the time and I wouldn't want him to have to officiate his sons services.

And almost over night this all went away, well not away but God allowed us to discover how to rebound from the deathbed and within a week he was talking, walking, eating, and gaining weight. A MIRACLE!

I cannot believe the amount of emotion that I struggled through during those difficult times, but I am thankful that God allowed us the opportunity to raise EE for Him and to have the chance to 'meet' him and get to know his silly but wonderful personality.

Being a Mama is my very favorite thing in the entire world and I pray that the Lord would allow us to work with the amazing Family to Family Adoption Inc. agency in Richmond Texas again sometime...sooner than later (hopefully!)

Please remember that Gods timing is most important above all of our hearts desires. We did not even know that we were going to be parents 48 hours before our daughter was born. We did not even know that our son existed until he was 6 days old and 15 minutes before he came home with us! If we would have planned things we would have planned thing much differently...but now that this is the way God has paved our path we would not change it for anything!

Back to the title....it means ONE miracle and SIX THOUSAND visits to LOVEBEINGMAMA.BLOGSPOT.COM! Thanks to the faithful readers...feel free to let me know you are there by way of comments!